Today was the first time I was going for the Easter vigil mass. It was at 11:30 pm. We had to stand during the mass, but I dint think that was a bad idea...your last little sacrifice. Besides I had a comfortable spot where I could see the mass happening on tv. So anyway I thought the mass was going pretty well. And the time came for the priests to bless the congregation with holy water. So as the priests came to the area where I was standing and blessed the people with holy water, I din't have even a drop of water fall on me! And I thought, 'that's it, it maybe because I din't actually feel sorry for my sins and din't do as many sacrifices, or pray as often, or never tried hard enough to be a good girl'. And I started to panic thinking I wasn't worthy to receive the Risen Lord. I felt so upset that the Lord ignored me ( well so I thought) and thought all was lost. You know how a little kid cries for his/her parents wen he/she is lost in a crowd? The de...