Today was the first time I was going for the Easter vigil mass. It was at 11:30 pm. We had to stand during the mass, but I dint think that was a bad idea...your last little sacrifice. Besides I had a comfortable spot where I could see the mass happening on tv.
So anyway I thought the mass was going pretty well. And the time came for the priests to bless the congregation with holy water. So as the priests came to the area where I was standing and blessed the people with holy water, I din't have even a drop of water fall on me! And I thought, 'that's it, it maybe because I din't actually feel sorry for my sins and din't do as many sacrifices, or pray as often, or never tried hard enough to be a good girl'.
And I started to panic thinking I wasn't worthy to receive the Risen Lord.
I felt so upset that the Lord ignored me ( well so I thought) and thought all was lost. You know how a little kid cries for his/her parents wen he/she is lost in a crowd? The desperate feelin he/she goes through of being lost and of not knowing what to do? Yes, tears were rolling down and I felt so sad and upset and while the intecessary prayers were goin on, I closed my eyes to pray and there it was!! THE CIRCLE of LIGHT!!
The circle of white light is the sign I have that tells me that God/Jesus is present there before me right then and there. Imagine the happiness that filled my heart!! My God, the risen Lord came running to console me and tell me "I'm with you and I will never forsake you!"
Yes truly, Jesus died on the cross for my sins and rose again on the third day, on Easter day.
May the peace and blessings of the risen Lord be with you all!!! Happy Easter!
Its Nice. Happy Easter Sheena :)
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